What If I’d Stayed Home?

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It’s a rainy Saturday in February and I’m sitting in my car, in an empty parking lot, with a notebook in my lap. Usually I go to the coffee shop on weekend mornings to write, but today I’m feeling a little under the weather.

I probably should have stayed home, but my habit of leaving the house to write is so deeply ingrained, and the parking lot is just across the street. There’s warm air blowing softly from the vents and the sound of rain pattering down on the windshield.

Maybe I won’t write anything good, but maybe I will.

Maybe I’ll write the sentence that leads me into my next story, and maybe that story will be the best one yet.

Maybe I’ll write a few messy pages that will later need to be reworked several times, but at least I’ll have something to work with.

Maybe I’ll write the outline of an essay that I won’t be ready to draft for another year, maybe two, but it’s a start.

Maybe I’ll write a whole poem, beginning to end, one of those surprising pieces that arrives fully formed and perfect as-is, and maybe I’ll keep that one for myself.

What I won’t do is leave this parking lot without writing anything. Because every time I put pencil to paper and create something good, I wonder, what if I’d chosen not to write today? What if I’d stayed home?

What if I gave up after fifteen minutes of staring out a windshield on a gray and cloudy morning, thinking I had nothing to say?

Then I wouldn’t have this. This sentence, this poem, this beginning.

Sweet Dreams for 2024

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Setting goals for the new year is always a challenge because there’s so much I want to do. As the years pass, the projects accumulate, to the point where I now have too many to choose from (admittedly a good problem to have). 

I thought long and hard over Winter Break about which project I should focus on in 2024. There’s my micro memoir, a collection of 100-word pieces meant to distill the stories of my life, mostly for my children. There are two novellas and a middle grade book completely drafted and waiting for edits. There’s a middle grade fairy tale and a young adult magical realism, both with beginnings but no end. 

I want to work on all of them. I want to write new essays. I want to write new short stories. I want more time in which to do it all.

But something I’ve learned over the years is this: simple is better and commitment is everything. I can accomplish much more when I try to do less and commit 100% to my choices. 

With that in mind, my writing goal for 2024 is pretty simple: I’m going to self-publish my cozy mystery series. 

Sweet Dreams is a project I dreamed up in 2019 after realizing there were no cozy mysteries for young adults. I planned out several books and wrote two in a six-month period; the following year I self-published the first one on Kindle Vella during their launch. I had a lot of success on that platform but ultimately decided to publish the books as actual books. Now that I’m nearly done drafting the third one, 2024 seems like a good time to release all three.

The first book will be released in summer, the second in fall, and the third in December, just in time for a Christmas bundle. That’s the plan anyway. And why shouldn’t it work? It’s simple enough, and I’m committed to seeing it through.

As for last year’s goals, here they are again, along with the results!

1) Self-publishing my short story collection, What Was Never There

What Was Never There was released on December 21.

2) Publishing at least one piece in a literary magazine

My short fiction “Windows” was published in Best Microfiction 2023 in July; another piece, “Wrapping Paper,” was published in 5 Minute Lit in August (and featured at the Salem Lit Fest in September!).

3) Reading 30 books

Here are the 31 books I read in 2023.

Happy 2024, everyone!!

What Was Never There Now Available in Print and Ebook!

Long before I penned rough drafts by hand or typed them into online word processors, I used a simple offline version of Microsoft Word. Like most of us who once wrote without the benefit of programs that save your work as you go, I experienced the daily harrowing fear of losing hundreds or thousands of words before I remembered to hit “save,” not to mention the dread of losing everything due to the untimely death of one’s computer.

To circumvent this, I established the habit of emailing myself each day’s work, usually with a brief note on what I accomplished, what I struggled with, what hindered or inspired me. This is how I managed to capture my process and progress writing What Was Never There. My story collection was published this week, and although it includes a handful of pieces written pre-2015, the heart of the collection was dreamed up in April of that year, during an intensive session of Camp NaNoWriMo. 

In that month, I outlined and then drafted several stories whose main characters were haunted in some way by a memory. That memory—sometimes distant, sometimes near—threaded its way through all others, becoming foundational to the character’s reality. It’s a common theme in my work; I’ve always found it unsettling how our world is shaped by memories that are so often false, misremembered, or incomplete. 

Maybe this is why I journal so faithfully. And although I write by hand now or draft in Google Docs, where I feel secure in never losing a work-in-progress, I’ve continued to record my process and experiences throughout each project. Still, those journal entries are in long-running documents, not attached to snapshots of my work the way they were back then. It’s intriguing to re-open old emails and see exactly what I wrote on any given day. 

It’s how I know the first three sentences I typed on April 1st of 2015, while drafting the title story, remain now exactly as they were written then—a perfect beginning to a story that falls somewhere in the middle of this strange and melancholy collection, like the fragment of a dream.

The moonlight saved us. A distant, cold illumination that softened at our feet, cast shadows on the path. The moonlight saved us, but it also cast shadows.

Click here to purchase a copy of What Was Never There.

Ten Years of Blogging

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This will be the last anniversary post for a while—I promise—but I couldn’t not shout out about the fact that this month marks my 10th year of blogging!

Having my very own corner of the internet to share my work, writing tips, and personal journey has been a joy. Other online spaces for me have come and gone: Facebook, Instagram, and probably soon the site formerly known as Twitter, but this space remains—a quiet place where I can be me and share things with you, a place you’re always invited to and where you’re free to comment safely, something always appreciated but never expected. Here there are no anxieties about numbers, no one shouting at each other, no ads.

I love it here. I hope you do too. And I hope, so much, that personal blogging becomes a thing again and that you’ll invite me into your little corner of the online world. I’ll probably be quiet.

But I’ll be listening.

In writerly news, my new micro, “Wrapping Paper,” was published this week in 5 Minute Lit. It’s a piece about Christmas, growing up, gifts, and motherhood, all wrapped up in 100 words. As always, thank you for reading.

A Few Special Occasions

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This month I’m celebrating a few special occasions. One is my 48th birthday (today!), and the other is the one-year anniversary of The House on Linden Way

If you’ve read Linden Way, the above image will make sense. The story, after all, relies heavily on the concept of time and the ways we become trapped within it. 

Life can feel fleeting in how days move swiftly and take with them so many memories. As both a writer and a mother I feel bound to the responsibility of capturing those memories. Journaling becomes almost an act of despair, driven by the persistent knowledge that a moment not captured is a moment lost. 

I want to remember.

And yet we cannot spend our lives reliving the past, and not everything needs to be preserved. A writer’s job is distillation. 

That’s part of what makes Linden Way special. It distills so much that’s important to me—motherhood, childhood, and sibling bonds—into a story half real, half imagined, and unburdened by details that belong in those late-night journals.

Happy anniversary to the book of my heart, and here’s to another year of writing.

The Songs That Tell Our Stories

Photo by Abigail Naranjo

We often describe writing as a lonely endeavor, a creative process best engaged in alone. But even in our most solitary moments, there are those we bring with us. They are the fellow storytellers whose work feels symbiotic to our own, whether it inspired us beforehand or because we discovered it at the same time, so that within their works of art we see our own story’s reflection. These companion creations come in many forms—in novels, in movies, in poetry. 

And in songs. 

I’ve written before about the sublime nature of music and how it can transcend a seemingly impassable distance, connecting us to what we need most. In childhood, when we are alone in our rooms and a tangle of confusion, we find the songs that speak for us, that seem to know us before we even know ourselves. As we grow older, if we’re lucky, we hold on to that old sense of magic yet rediscover it through new songs.

For me, the music that captured so much of my childhood—from the melodic cadences of Iron Maiden to the dark poetry of Ronnie James Dio—threads to the music I’ve connected with most as an adult, especially in the form of doom metal. If my own writing were a music genre, it would surely be this one: sparse, languid, and melancholy. In these songs so much of the story is told in the spaces between words, those haunting riffs and plaintive melodies that carry the listener along, in the way I strive to tell my stories through atmosphere and in the meaning of things left unsaid. 

One of my favorite doom metal bands, Khemmis, blend the best of the genre with traditional heavy metal—a perfect mix. Their 2016 album, Hunted, came at a time when I, like many others, found myself blindsided by a world that had broken open to reveal such depths of vulgarity and hatred that I necessarily retreated from it. Hunted was there for me when I desperately needed to surround myself with something beautiful. 

A few years later Khemmis released another album, Desolation, and once again gifted music that came at the perfect time. Songs like “Isolation” and “Flesh to Nothing” helped me through an unplanned period of reinvention, and when I became willfully lost writing The House on Linden Way, I brought the song “From Ruin” with me—a stunningly beautiful song so inextricably woven in the writing of that manuscript that it feels like part of my own story now. 

Recently, my daughter and I had a chance to see Khemmis in concert. Days before the show she suggested we upgrade to the VIP package for a chance to meet the guys in person. I balked at first; the concert was on a school night, and having to teach the next day would be hard enough without making the night even longer. But then the idea took hold. I changed my mind. 

It’s not often you get to meet, face to face, those storytellers whose works you’ve lived with for so long and connected with so deeply. I wondered what I should say. I wondered if I was being a little selfish showing up for a meet and greet and saying anything at all to performers who already give everything on stage.  

And yet, as a writer, I know what a rare and wonderful surprise it is when someone reaches out personally to tell you how much a piece resonated with them. Khemmis are a young band whose momentum was frustratingly stalled by the pandemic; they’ve worked hard to stay connected to their art and to their audience, and they need to know how much they mean to their fans.

So I’m glad I decided to meet the guys. They are kind, funny, incredibly sweet, and just so talented. It felt pretty special being able to shake their hands and tell them what their music has meant to me over the years. Another reminder that, as writers who choose to send our stories out into the world, we are never truly alone. 

Shaking hands with bassist David Small (photo credit: Abigail Naranjo)

Just casually chatting with some of my favorite songwriters (!!!) (photo credit: Abigail Naranjo)

A very metal photo (photo credit: Abigail Naranjo)

Waiting for the show to begin (photo credit: Abigail Naranjo, obviously :))

Twin guitar harmonies, a thing of beauty (photo credit: Abigail Naranjo)

Ben Hutcherson. That is all. (photo credit: Abigail Naranjo)

“Windows” is Selected for Best Microfiction 2023!

I am thrilled to announce that my short story “Windows” has been selected for Best Microfiction 2023!

“Windows” appeared in Fractured Lit last March and went on to earn a nomination in December. Here’s the story again, in case you missed it.

This comes at a perfect time for me because I am three chapters away from wrapping up my cozy mystery series, and while it’s been a blast writing commercial fiction, I’m ready to return to more literary writing, especially short-form literature. Having one of my micros honored is wonderful inspiration.

Here’s a list of all the stories selected for the anthology, which will be available for purchase in July.

On the Benefits of Self-Publishing and the Thrill of a Good October Story

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I’d originally envisioned my blog tour for The House on Linden Way to take place in July. That was the month I’d promised to release the book in print, and it made sense to promote it right after publication and throughout the summer.

That didn’t quite work out. By the time I was ready to book the tour, the earliest dates Women on Writing had available were in September and October. It took about five minutes after hearing this news to reconcile my vision: of course autumn was the perfect time to promote a haunted house story! It was clearly meant to be.

Now in its second week, the blog tour has been a total blast, and I’ve enjoyed putting together the guest posts (and having extra time to write them).

Here are the links for my recent tour stops:

On Tuesday, I stopped by Mindy McGinnis’s blog to talk about the differences between traditional publishing and self-publishing (and which path I prefer).

On Friday, I was over at The Faerie Review discussing the chilling comfort of October stories and offering up a few of my personal favorites.

And today I was treated to a surprise review by my incredibly dedicated and hard-working tour manager, Crystal. Thanks, Crystal! You’re the sweetest. 🙂

Next week I’ll share a few more reviews, an interview, and a guest post called “The Lingering Ghosts of Our Childhood Homes.” See you then!

Fall into Reading and the Linden Way Blog Tour


Happy autumn, everyone! I am so excited for this season. After three years I can finally take my fall workshop again (it just wouldn’t have been the same on Zoom); my blog tour for The House on Linden Way kicked off this week and continues throughout October; and I’m part of a new Women on Writing giveaway called Fall into Reading, because what better way to celebrate any occasion than with FREE books?!

Click here for more information on the Fall into Reading giveaway, which includes 16 books (one of which should look familiar!), various other prizes, and a $150 Amazon gift card.

On to Linden Way! All of the dates for the blog tour are listed below; there are 22 stops over six weeks featuring reviews, spotlights, articles, and interviews. I’ll post a weekly roundup here so that you don’t miss a thing.

In Monday’s interview on Women on Writing, I talked about the journey of writing Linden Way, the truth in my fiction, and the differences between traditional publishing and self-publishing.

On Thursday I was over at Deborah Adam’s blog with a piece called “Exploring Our Deepest Fears Through Speculative Fiction. 

And on Friday The House on Linden Way was in the spotlight on The Faerie Review.

That’s it for this week! See you soon, and thank you all for your continued support.

Nine Years of Blogging

 

When I first started blogging in 2013, I remember feeling far behind. It was as if everyone had a blog already, and I watched in those early years as they celebrated their five or six or seven year anniversaries, thinking, I wish I’d started earlier.

Time passed quickly, and now here I am, celebrating my ninth year as a blogger. I’m not a very prolific one but I’ve managed to stay consistent, and I enjoy reflecting on my journey as a writer and all the moments of motherhood threaded through these posts. 

In honor of the occasion, I wanted to share with you my top four blog posts in terms of readership, my four personal favorites, and a bonus to make it nine. 

My Four Most Read Blog Posts

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Book Sales and Royalty Statements

Little wonder this would be the post that interested most readers! Money talks, and many of you were curious how much I was making back in 2014 after my debut novel, The Fourth Wall, was published. Spoiler alert: not much! But I had fun putting this post together, and perhaps it was illuminating. 

Are Blog Tours Worth It?

This is my second most read post, and I hope it brought some authors around to the idea of blog tours, because they are absolutely worth it! In fact, my tour for The House on Linden Way, hosted by the same company who hosted The Fourth Wall, begins next month. Stay tuned, and enjoy this post on the benefits of blog tours. 

One Author’s Experience With Kindle Vella

For a blog post that’s only a year old, this one has really generated some interest, making it my third most popular post ever. Not bad! Authors are understandably curious about Amazon’s new serialized fiction platform, and sharing my early experience with the self-publishing site has continued to intrigue other writers. 

Oh, What a Night

My fourth most read post since this site launched in August 2013 is the celebration of my book launch at Changing Hands Bookstore in the summer of 2014. It’s still fun for me to look back on too! Family, friends, cupcakes, a beautiful book display, a dream come true. Oh, what a night indeed.

My Four Favorite Blog Posts (and One Extra)

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The Story Behind You

It should come as no surprise that my favorite blog posts inevitably center around moments with my children. This one features a very special Mother’s Day gift and an eloquent truth all writers should remember.

New Beginnings

One of my sweetest memories was when my son’s second grade teacher invited me to talk to her class about being an author. I recounted the memorable experience in this post from 2015.

On First Publications

My daughter’s own success as a creative writer inspired me to write on the relevance of first publications. I was and am so proud of Abigail’s perseverance and bravery, commemorated in this post from 2018.

How to Fall in Love With Writing All Over Again

It is always my hope that others will find inspiration in my blog posts. How-to posts are some of the most difficult for me to write but also the most fulfilling. Here I share tips for learning how to recapture the love and joy of writing. 

And just to make it nine, and because there’s nothing like your first, here is the post that launched my blog nearly a decade ago. After all this time, it still feels as special as it did back then. 

Surprise!