Everything Counts

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A recent article in Literary Hub explored the phenomenon of super-readers, those extra-devoted bookworms who read anywhere from one hundred to several hundred books a year. How do they manage this staggering output? Are they speed-readers? Are they all retired empty-nesters? Where do they find the time?

The author of the piece asked these questions to over a dozen super-readers, defined as those who read a minimum of one hundred books per year (audiobooks not included), making sure to exclude those who read for a living. She whittled down their habits to five recurring patterns, one of which is

They read in the margins of life. 

Aside from being quite poetic, I found this method especially interesting because it can also be applied to writing. Most of the people interviewed for the article have full-time jobs and families. They’re able to finish so many books a year partly because they carry books with them and read in fragments of time—in doctors’ offices, on lunch breaks, on the bus, before bed. 

Many writers also have full-time jobs and families. They may only be able to finish their books by carrying notebooks with them—jotting down ideas on their lunch breaks, working out plot holes while waiting in lines, drafting a page or two in that quiet slice of morning before work and in the bleary and often bone-tired moments before bed.

Those fragments of time accumulate quickly. Eventually, they’re bound to add up to a whole book—whether that book is being read, or whether it is being written. Like the article points out, “Five minutes count. Ten minutes count. One chapter counts.” 

Everything counts.

Can You?

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As a lifelong Stephen King fan, I have a handful of the master of horror’s books in regular rotation. In any given year I’m likely to reread The Stand, Pet Semetery, Firestarter, Different Seasons, It, or The Shining, just to name a few favorites. Despite the darkness of the stories, they feel like comfort reads to me, probably because they lead me down that irresistible and shadowy path into the past where I first discovered them. For some reason though, it had been decades since I’d reread Misery

That’s easily remedied, I thought back in March as I was searching for the perfect book to wrap up a lovely spring break. I still have my copy from the 90s, an old mass market paperback with a torn cover and yellowed pages, although I had to steal it back from my daughter (Misery’s the one Stephen King book she’s read, and she adored it so much I think she’s afraid nothing else will live up to that standard). After plucking it off her bookshelf I settled in to reacquaint myself with the story, which I did with immense pleasure and predictable nostalgia on sunny days in the shade of my porch and long evenings propped up against my wedge pillow, sipping coffee (teacher breaks really are the best). 

A few things surprised me about Misery. One is that, at 340 pages, the novel is uncharacteristically short. Another is that it is an absolute treasure trove of authorial insights that I can appreciate now in ways I wouldn’t have been able to before; after all, the last time I read the book, I hadn’t yet written one of my own. 

For those unfamiliar with the story, the main character Paul Sheldon is a famous author who gets rescued from a car crash by his number one fan, who proceeds to kidnap him and force him to write a book just for her. In doing so, he must revisit a series he’d put behind him and resurrect a character he’d previously killed off, all while suffering the excruciating pain of two shattered legs and the constant terror of disappointing his sadistic captor. 

That’s way more pressure than I’ve ever faced with a mere deadline, yet the ways in which Paul struggles with the work are universal to writers. He has several false starts. He types a chapter heading and stares at all of the white space below it. He gets ideas and then rejects them. He begins to feel like the typewriter is mocking him. Paul is stuck, frustrated, desperately trying to figure out how to bring a character back from the dead in a way that feels fair

And then he remembers a game he played as a young boy in summer camp, where the kids would sit in a circle and tell a story, led by the camp counselor. The counselor would introduce the main character and set a scene which immediately put him or her in danger. Then the counselor would choose one camper, say, “Can You?” and start a ten-second timer. In that time, the camper had to further the narrative, which included getting the main character out of whatever dilemma they were in. Some kids would go blank; some would try to cheat by using a deux ex machina. Those kids had to leave the circle. The ones who managed to advance the plot fairly got to stay in the game.

Paul remembers how he almost always won. Something in him—that quality that would lead him to becoming a prolific best-selling author—drove him to embrace the challenge, to furiously work out the plot in a race against the timer. And so, in the room where he’s being held prisoner and forced to write a book from a premise that feels impossible, he asks himself the question: Can You? And he does.

Anyone who writes novels can relate to the inevitable and seemingly insurmountable plot issues that come with drafting hundreds of pages of a manuscript. At some point your story is going to stall. You get tangled up in narrative threads. You get lost in the weeds. You write yourself into corners. You begin to doubt everything. You want to give up. But that question persists—refusing to leave you alone, following you every waking moment and into your dreams, a challenge, a taunt: Can You? 

Of course you can.

It Only Takes One “Yes”

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Friday was the anniversary of a pretty special occasion for me. On that day, three years ago, I received my first acceptance letter, for a short story called “Eleven Seconds.”

I will never forget the moment I received that email. It was a cold December evening, and we were gathered around the fireplace. I remember when I saw the subject line I cried out, and Abbey, who was nine years old, thought something was wrong. Then I hugged her and I hugged my son and I hugged my husband. I would have hugged you too, had you been there.

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I’d been writing stories since grade school, but it wasn’t until my thirties that I began seriously submitting my work. Sometime after my son was born I just decided to go for it. I decided my dream of turning the title “aspiring writer” into “published author” was a good dream, and it deserved to happen, and the only way it would happen was if I stopped hiding behind the idea of it and actually put my work out there.

So I did, and I spent years collecting rejection slips. They didn’t bother me as much as you’d think. Simply corresponding with editors made me feel as if I were moving forward. It put me in a different category of writers. There are those who think about submitting their work, and then there are those who submit their work. Only writers from the second category get their work published, and the rejections they collect along the way become a kind of badge of honor.

I’d heard that once a writer breaks through, the acceptance letters start coming in pretty regularly. And that was true for me–within a month I had another one, and more would soon follow.

But there will always be rejections. Nearly everything I’ve had published was rejected first.

For example, “Eleven Seconds” was rejected three times. The Fourth Wall was rejected twenty-two times. Don’t worry too much about how many times you hear “No,” because it only takes one “Yes.”

Don’t give up.

Here’s the text of my little story that could, which originally appeared in SLAB literary magazine in the spring of 2012. Read it, if you like, and then go submit one of yours.


ELEVEN SECONDS

It started in the kitchen. A clinking of porcelain, a delicate, dreadful trembling, cups and saucers and unused dinner plates jumping in the cupboards like those little beans from Mexico. What were those called?

Thunder ripped the ground and the old man jerked up from his chair, instinctively, but the fear passed through him like a bullet. His heart fluttered once. He sat back down.

From his seat in the living room, the old man watched his kitchen heave forward and burst apart. The world could shatter around you; he knew that. Bending forward, he plucked a fragment of china from the ground, like a flower. His wife, Winnifred, had painted this piece, before the cancer took her last year. He could see her clearly, her pale knotted hand curled around the thin brush, looping and twirling like a dancer. The old man pressed his hands together and folded them over the broken china, like a prayer.


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Just Enjoy It

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Last week I finished reading a book that left my head spinning. From the first line to the last, I was held captive by the author’s voice. Every sentence felt right. The story was unique, and the characters stayed true. You could tell this writer worked hard, probably for years, to perfect her debut novel.

The book is Zazen by Vanessa Veselka. About a year ago I read her short story “Just before Elena” in Tin House and loved it. Later, I recognized her name in an issue of Poets & Writers, and I made a note to check out her novel. I am so glad that I did. I have several titles waiting on my TBR list, but I’ll probably read Zazen again first.

It’s important to have books like this—the ones we completely fall in love with. They’re the kind we’re told to read, as in “Read the books you want to write.” They’re the kind that made us want to become writers.

But when one is this good, it can be pretty humbling. At some point, all writers must accept the fact that there will always be someone better.

If the payoff is getting to enjoy a book like Zazen, that’s fine. It’s refreshing to read as a reader and not as a writer. I don’t want to dissect the prose and figure out why it works and try to analyze the way Veselka’s character stays sympathetic while she’s terrorizing her city with bomb threats—never mind. It works, that’s all. Let it stay magic.

What I did take away from Veselka’s writing is that I can never let myself become lazy. You can’t imitate talent, but you can embody other qualities of great artists—hard work and high standards—and come up with something fine. After finishing Zazen, I wanted to comb through my own novel and make absolutely sure that each sentence, if it had to stand on its own, was one I could be proud of. When you have the cushion of tens of thousands of words, it’s easy to let a lazy phrase slip through. Well, Veselka didn’t. And I know, as a reader, I appreciate that.