The Season of Change

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It’s the first day of fall break and I’m in my backyard, listening to the rain and the sound of the mesquite tree swaying in the breeze. It’s eight o’clock in the morning and I have the whole day ahead of me. 

Last week at work, a fellow teacher asked me what I was going to do over break. You know that moment when you take the first sip of a perfect cup of hot chocolate on a cold day and you feel it warm you from the inside out? That’s how it felt when I smiled and said, “I’m going to write.” 

Since January, I’ve been taking classes towards my master’s degree in education, and by coincidence the final term ended at exactly the same time fall break began. I enjoyed my program, but it was an intense nine months that required a substantial amount of weekly hours dedicated to research and scholarly writing. 

With my final capstone project submitted, I am now free to fully return to the kind of writing I love. And what better time to do that than the season of change, when darkness begins to linger, when the world gets a little quieter, when I can light a candle, pull on a sweater, and open my notebook to another blank page.

“Music Box” Wins Editor’s Pick in Writing Contest

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I’m honored to announce that my micro memoir “Music Box” was selected as an Editor’s Pick for Five Minute Lit’s first Micromemoir Marathon. 

The contest ran for twenty-six days in May, inviting writers to submit to one or more of twenty-six prompts, crafting pieces of exactly one hundred words. The prompt “Music Box” made a perfect title for my piece, so I kept it.

You can read “Music Box” here, and the announcement with all of the winners’ bios here. 

As always, thank you for reading.

 

Perseverance and the Sunk Cost Fallacy

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There comes a point in the writing of a novel when you have to make a choice. Stay the course, or move on. I’ve never left a project unfinished with no intention to return, but I’ve shelved works in progress when the time just didn’t feel right to complete them. This gets trickier, however, when you’re writing a series.

I’d originally planned on publishing all three books in my young adult cozy mystery series in 2024. And I almost made it! Murder by Milkshake came out in July of that year, and Pralines and Creamed followed two months later. But editing that second book took much more time than I’d expected, and I couldn’t get the third one out by December; it was only half-written.

No problem, I thought. One of the benefits of self-publishing is that I make my own deadlines. I’d just set a new one for the summer of 2025. Only that didn’t happen. And neither did my new goal of publishing it that winter. I kept running into plot issues, and I was beginning to struggle with motivation. I’d been planning, writing, and editing Sweet Dreams books for six years. I was aching to write something new. And this darn manuscript wasn’t cooperating. 

I started to question why I kept trying. Why I continued sinking time and effort into a book that just wasn’t working. I wondered if I was falling victim to the sunk cost fallacy—the illogical belief that we should continue to pursue a failing course of action simply because we’ve invested in it. It’s a fallacy because whether we quit or forge ahead, the investment is gone.

Maybe I should just cut my losses, I thought. 

Yet at some point doesn’t every writer feel that their work in progress is a lost cause? Writing a novel is difficult. There always comes a time when you question everything. You simply have to push through.

So when do we give up on a project to avoid the sunk cost fallacy? And when is that just an excuse to quit when things get hard? I really don’t know. 

I only knew I couldn’t give up on my book. Because I wouldn’t be happy with myself if I did. Because it’s part of a series that would then be unfinished. Because there’s this one girl who reached out to me on Goodreads after reading the first two books and enthusiastically asked if there were going to be more. I promised her there would be.

So I decided to keep going. I vowed I wouldn’t let myself start a new writing project until the third Sweet Dreams book was completed. I dove into edits again and again and persevered through each one. And guess what happened next?

I ended up falling back in love with the story. 

It comes out in two weeks.

Everything Counts

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A recent article in Literary Hub explored the phenomenon of super-readers, those extra-devoted bookworms who read anywhere from one hundred to several hundred books a year. How do they manage this staggering output? Are they speed-readers? Are they all retired empty-nesters? Where do they find the time?

The author of the piece asked these questions to over a dozen super-readers, defined as those who read a minimum of one hundred books per year (audiobooks not included), making sure to exclude those who read for a living. She whittled down their habits to five recurring patterns, one of which is

They read in the margins of life. 

Aside from being quite poetic, I found this method especially interesting because it can also be applied to writing. Most of the people interviewed for the article have full-time jobs and families. They’re able to finish so many books a year partly because they carry books with them and read in fragments of time—in doctors’ offices, on lunch breaks, on the bus, before bed. 

Many writers also have full-time jobs and families. They may only be able to finish their books by carrying notebooks with them—jotting down ideas on their lunch breaks, working out plot holes while waiting in lines, drafting a page or two in that quiet slice of morning before work and in the bleary and often bone-tired moments before bed.

Those fragments of time accumulate quickly. Eventually, they’re bound to add up to a whole book—whether that book is being read, or whether it is being written. Like the article points out, “Five minutes count. Ten minutes count. One chapter counts.” 

Everything counts.

Can You?

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As a lifelong Stephen King fan, I have a handful of the master of horror’s books in regular rotation. In any given year I’m likely to reread The Stand, Pet Semetery, Firestarter, Different Seasons, It, or The Shining, just to name a few favorites. Despite the darkness of the stories, they feel like comfort reads to me, probably because they lead me down that irresistible and shadowy path into the past where I first discovered them. For some reason though, it had been decades since I’d reread Misery. 

That’s easily remedied, I thought back in March as I was searching for the perfect book to wrap up a lovely spring break. I still have my copy from the 90s, an old mass market paperback with a torn cover and yellowed pages, although I had to steal it back from my daughter (Misery’s the one Stephen King book she’s read, and she adored it so much I think she’s afraid nothing else will live up to that standard). After plucking it off her bookshelf I settled in to reacquaint myself with the story, which I did with immense pleasure and predictable nostalgia on sunny days in the shade of my porch and long evenings propped up against my wedge pillow, sipping coffee (teacher breaks really are the best). 

A few things surprised me about Misery. One is that, at 340 pages, the novel is uncharacteristically short. Another is that it is an absolute treasure trove of authorial insights that I can appreciate now in ways I wouldn’t have been able to before; after all, the last time I read the book, I hadn’t yet written one of my own. 

For those unfamiliar with the story, the main character Paul Sheldon is a famous author who gets rescued from a car crash by his number one fan, who proceeds to kidnap him and force him to write a book just for her. In doing so, he must revisit a series he’d put behind him and resurrect a character he’d previously killed off, all while suffering the excruciating pain of two shattered legs and the constant terror of disappointing his sadistic captor. 

That’s way more pressure than I’ve ever faced with a mere deadline, yet the ways in which Paul struggles with the work are universal to writers. He has several false starts. He types a chapter heading and stares at all of the white space below it. He gets ideas and then rejects them. He begins to feel like the typewriter is mocking him. Paul is stuck, frustrated, desperately trying to figure out how to bring a character back from the dead in a way that feels fair. 

And then he remembers a game he played as a young boy in summer camp, where the kids would sit in a circle and tell a story, led by the camp counselor. The counselor would introduce the main character and set a scene which immediately put him or her in danger. Then the counselor would choose one camper, say, “Can You?” and start a ten-second timer. In that time, the camper had to further the narrative, which included getting the main character out of whatever dilemma they were in. Some kids would go blank; some would try to cheat by using a deux ex machina. Those kids had to leave the circle. The ones who managed to advance the plot fairly got to stay in the game.

Paul remembers how he almost always won. Something in him—that quality that would lead him to becoming a prolific best-selling author—drove him to embrace the challenge, to furiously work out the plot in a race against the timer. And so, in the room where he’s being held prisoner and forced to write a book from a premise that feels impossible, he asks himself the question: Can You? And he does.

Anyone who writes novels can relate to the inevitable and seemingly insurmountable plot issues that come with drafting hundreds of pages of a manuscript. At some point your story is going to stall. You get tangled up in narrative threads. You get lost in the weeds. You write yourself into corners. You begin to doubt everything. You want to give up. But that question persists—refusing to leave you alone, following you every waking moment and into your dreams, a challenge, a taunt: Can You? 

Of course you can.

Unexpected Gifts

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Once or twice a year I’m reminded powerfully why writing and sharing our stories is so important. Usually the reminder is in the form of an email sent by a stranger. I can’t express what these unexpected gifts in my inbox mean to me. They often seem to come at a time when I need them most. 

I received one in January from a reader who’d discovered an essay I’d written in 2017. The essay, published in Motherwell magazine, described the period in parenthood when one of your children begins to outgrow the other. When I wrote the piece, my daughter was fourteen and my son was nine. She was navigating high school, he was still in elementary. Their once-shared path through childhood had diverged. 

Readers left comments throughout the years—sometimes older siblings, sometimes younger ones—each quietly devastating. But the email I received last month was from a mother. She was going through the same dilemma with her children, who were around the same age as mine were all those years ago. It was the most heartbreaking time she’d experienced in parenthood so far, she said. She wanted to know how it had turned out with my kids, who are now adults. 

It took me nearly an hour to draft my response. I wanted to say the right things. I wanted to acknowledge the fact that she’d reached out with a very personal story and let herself be vulnerable. Mostly, I wanted to give her hope.

Just like her email had given me hope. That we need each other’s stories. That they’re worth writing. That capturing something painful and sharing it can, nearly a decade later, continue to help others feel a little less alone. 

Creativity, Connection, and Hope

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Before setting new goals, it’s important to look back at accomplishments and take a moment to celebrate them. I didn’t do everything I wanted to do in 2025, but I held on to my publishing streak (thirteen years running!) and restored the balance in my writing life that I’d vowed to focus on this time last year.

In that post from what feels like a lifetime ago, I wrote about the fact that I’d spent a year focused on my cozy mystery series and I needed space to imagine whole new stories, time to edit, publish, market, write, and time to just dream.

Mission accomplished. My writing stats from 2025 include drafting four new stories and one new essay, adding over 10,000 words to my current novel, blogging every month (except May), submitting work to three literary magazines (one successfully!), entering a contest, publishing a new motherhood piece, and performing in a spoken word event in December.

The last one is particularly meaningful. In April, I talked about the importance of having a writing community and how I felt I’d lost mine. Not being on social media makes it difficult not only to keep in touch with others but also to stay in-the-know about literary events. I hadn’t stood on a stage and read my work to an audience in over seven years.

In keeping with my resolution to stay more connected, I reached out to some old friends via email and was happily invited to participate in Bar Flies’ annual Eating Christmas public reading at Crescent Ballroom. It was lovely to see familiar faces and hear amazing stories, and to feel those once-familiar butterflies as I crossed the stage holding the pages of my new essay.

I have high hopes for 2026. I hope to stay connected, and to cross more stages. I hope to stay creative, and to write my heart out. There are so many stories to tell. Along the way, I’ll post here once a month and keep you updated. You didn’t think I was going to forget that, did you?

An Early Christmas Gift

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‘Tis the season to be grateful, and this November I have an extra-special reason: I was thrilled to receive an invitation to read an essay at the annual Bar Flies: Eating Christmas event!

On December 10, I’ll be taking the stage with some of my favorite Valley writers, including Robrt Pela and Amy Silverman, and sharing a true holiday-themed story.

If you’d care to join us at Crescent Ballroom in Phoenix and enjoy some great stories, music, and drinks, get your tickets now! It would mean the world to me to see you there.

Happy Holidays, everyone!

Don’t Hide Your Dreams Away

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A few years ago I was cleaning out my closet and decided to dedicate a shelf to my writing. I dusted off my Fourth Wall poster board and stood it upright. I unpacked boxes of author’s copies of the books I’d published and lined them up with the poster. Next to those I added all of the anthologies I’ve been featured in over the years. 

It never occurred to me why I’d chosen a shelf in the closet.

When a local author shared a photo recently of an entire bookshelf she’d devoted to her own novels, I stared at the picture in wonder. I felt a surge of happiness for her—what a beautiful tribute to her accomplishments!—and then I felt a crush of sadness for me. Why had I chosen a shelf in my closet?

Failing to celebrate our achievements is unfortunately all too common. Perhaps it’s an effort to be humble that makes us silence our own success. Humble is a complicated word, however. Synonyms range from respectful to submissive. From deferential to insignificant. Gemini’s oddly poetic definition is “to be not proud.” 

But I am proud. I just need to get better at showing it.

So last weekend, I emptied the shelf in my closet and dusted off that poster board again. Then I rearranged my bedroom bookshelves and created a prominent display of my published work. It’s one of the first things I see in the morning when I wake up, in the afternoon when I get home, and at night before I drift off to sleep.

It’s a start.

 

Read “Driving Lessons” in Five Minute Lit

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My son turned eighteen on May 28, the same day this piece was published in Five Minute Lit. Another year gone by. Another milestone. They are adding up to one long road, and it’s sure to be a little lonely. Such is parenthood.

As always, thanks for reading.